Well since it has been a while once again. Turns out I’m really bad at this blogging thing, but I know that when I need to rant it will always be here. It’s a pretty good outlet for my problems.
As it has been a good year and a half since I typed here last I should probably update everyone on what my life is like at the moment. Subject to change at any time.
It’s summertime here in northeastern Pa. I just graduated from High School a few months ago and this Fall I am headed to Delaware Valley University to study Animal Science/ Pre-Professional. Heading towards that Veterinarian track I’ve always hoped to pursue.
My love life consists of one man, which if you know me is quite impressive. Not that there hasn’t been a lot of guys between the last time I posted to know, but catching everyone up would take a while. Maybe I’ll do it someday. Just not right now. My current boyfriend of almost 11 months now, Tucker, who I believe I could love for the rest of my life is still my new infatuation. As this is my longest standing relationship I can say that I truly am in love with this boy and that there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do for him. Although, we fight a lot more than we probably should and we say things we don’t mean, he’s my whole world. I don’t know what I would do without his love, support, and smile.
I met Tucker at my now ex-boyfriends Prom where he was attending with his ex as well. We said hi to each other, as our exes knew each other and were introducing us. Other than that we had no contact until about the end of August when he added me on Snapchat and started flirting. At this time I was single for almost a couple months now, but he was still with the girl he had gone to that Prom with back in May. He came to me about the problems they were having and we got to be pretty good friends. Eventually he asked me out to dinner and well the rest is history (and a story for another time).
Thats a quick rap up on what has been going on in my life and I appreciate if anyone read through it all. :p
So there’s this guy. No, I’m not talking about my boyfriend. Just hold on and keep reading before you start freaking out. I’m not a cheater… I’m really not… well not yet.
I think that’s the worst sentence I could have ever wrote. I don’t even have feelings for the guy I started talking about so the whole “Cheating” topic will be saved for another blog.
So anyway there’s this guy. My Mom used to babysit him and his older brother when they were babies. I guess you could say they’re family friends to a certain extent. I knew him from 4-H, our families, and the cabin we go to sometimes.
He messaged me back in early March on Messenger, because we were Facebook friends. It was kinda out of the blue and it was just small talk. I didn’t think anything of it really, because he had a girlfriend and we we’re always just nice to each other. He asked for my snap chat because he wanted more people to snap so I gave it to him and again thought nothing of it.
Not long after snapping back and forth I kinda picked up a flirty tone and just tried to tell myself that he was being friendly. That lasted for less than an hour until he told me that I was beautiful and that he’s always had a thing for redheads…. HOLD UP… He has a girlfriend of like 2 or 3 years that I also know. I didn’t want to get into this and it kinda grossed me out. He’s not that good looking and not to mention he’s like FOUR YEARS OLDER THAN ME!
I quickly reminded him that he had a girlfriend and that he was being weird. He really didn’t care that he was in a relationship and he continues to still talk to me like he is single. He has talked about one day dating me and not to mention his girlfriend LIVES WITH HIM. Maybe I’m overreacting I mean it’s all talk right?
Well a couple months ago he tried to talk me into sneaking out at like midnight to go fishing with him… First of all I’m not a bad kid I don’t sneak out, so I told him that I didn’t feel like getting into trouble and that it was cold and I was tired, but he wouldn’t give up. So eventually I just told him I had a boyfriend even though I didn’t at the time.
Let’s just say he backed off for like a week and he is already talking to me again. I can’t make it all seem like his fault because I still reply and talk to him, but I try and stay far away from flirting with him. I know he will be at the Fair I’m showing at with his girlfriend and he always talks about hanging out and I’m kinda worried about what he’ll try.
I know that if I wanted him to stop talking to me I could easily end it… I like the attention though and I don’t want it to be awkward between our families. I know I have a problem… Well I think this is where I stop typing. Sorry for the length.
– Yours Truly